The Voice of Stillness: Meditation and the Journey to the Self
Meditation is perhaps one of the few things that can be equally agonizing and enriching. Sitting still for ten (or more) minutes as an observer of your thoughts, inhaling and exhaling, forces you to go through an experience -- not to reject it, deny it, suppress it, or put it off. This experience is one of the most difficult of all, because we are called on to stay with whatever comes rather than implement our usual tactic of running away. The practice of mindfulness meditation is a porthole into our subconscious. Everything ugly and daunting and painful has a way of arising in this still space, and our challenge is to allow those things to exist, yet without granting them power. The Voice of Stillness: Meditation and the Journey to the Self Leave your front door and your back door open. Allow your thoughts to come and go. Just don't serve them tea. - Shunryu Suzuki For me, the above quote is about allowing an experience without indulging it any more than need be. It's about recognizing a feeling, a fear, an infatuation, but giving yourself the respect and right to let it pass. It suggests a rejection of the instinct to cling to any thought, thing, or one. It makes me think of having a conversation with my experience; a stern debate, a heart to heart, a welcoming hello, but not a "Since it's late, why don't you stay over?" invite. And I believe sometimes it is necessary to spend a fair amount of time in the beginning simply purging through the junk we've allowed to clog up inside us before we can access our stillest, most soothing, soulful inner voice. Focus on what you fear Recently I re-experimented with a meditative exercise I haven't done for months because it requires a great deal of emotional energy to endure. The exercise is simple: lie down on the floor with your knees raised and go through a list, out loud, of the things you fear. It's usually easier to start with irrational phobias like fears of insects and gradually move into deeper fears like abandonment, failure or the death of a loved one. READ: Your Fears Will Set You Free, but Only if You Free Them First I can guarantee that if you attempt this exercise tears will flow, and it will feel like ripping open old wounds. But this is good. It means you are purging old energy and making way for the new. My biggest belief about meditation is that one can't meditate properly and presently until they've gone through a process of eliminating the biggest obstacle standing in the way: a half-hearted, absent commitment, bred of a fear of big change. The journey of meditation There are tons of people out there who believe they "can't" meditate because they feel stillness does nothing for them. And in all honesty, that would be the case for anyone if they were just sitting still mindlessly, thinking about what they were going to eat for dinner. Meditation is an act of concentration anchored by the breath; an observation of every invasive ego-thought attempting to steer us away from our higher path. It necessitates a mature awareness and acceptance that some days will be easier than others. For almost a year I've committed to at least ten minutes of meditating a day, and I still struggle and get agitated on countless occasions. There are people who've been doing it for ten, twenty, thirty years who still say the same. Like comets in the sky This is where the value lies: not in the unquantifiable end-result, but rather in the going through. This is the itchy, unbearable, (sometimes) joyous, quiet place where we learn resilience and cultivate inner strength. As the famous quote asserts, "The goal of meditation isn't to control your thoughts, it's to stop letting them control you." Be honest with yourself here: how long have you let recurring thoughts rule your life? How many final decisions have you made that at the very last moment were infested with fear? How often in a day do you allow a moment to really take a deep, full, all-the-way-down-to-the-tips-of-your-toes, breath? READ: How to Calm the Chaos of Everyday Life With Mindfulness Meditation What would happen if you changed that reality, allowing your thoughts rite of passage by taking time to meditate every day? A quick guess would be that you'd become a much more efficient, wholesome person and much less of an anxious dweller. You'd spend more time focused on the tasks at hand in the present moment – the only one that is guaranteed – than on the mythical future life-changing ones that may or may not arrive. You'd begin to sense, as Oprah words it, "the still, small space inside me that is the same as the stillness in you." If you peel back the layers of your life -- the frenzy, the noise -- stillness is waiting. -- Oprah So, the next time you have a thought, negative or positive, rather than suppress it, diminish it, subdue it, or savor it -- sit with it in stillness. Experience it with your whole heart, then, in the same way trees, storms, stars and planets do, watch it pass.
Take Control of Your Mind, and Create Your New Reality
We need to take care of the well-being of our brains now more than ever. We are an over-thinking, over-working, over-worrying society. Our ancestors probably never foresaw a world of so much gloom; the energy we once used as adrenaline to help us outrun sabre-toothed cats now remains lodged within us with nowhere to go. Your result? An implosion of ceaseless anxiety. And what does anxiety produce? Self-hatred, doubt, resentment and just about every other detrimental emotion our minds can muster. Yet the truth is that we can learn to control our thoughts. Undoubtedly, this is a difficult concept -- because so many of us have latched onto the belief from birth that we are victims, end of story. But as late motivational author Louise Hay would have phrased it: if it's so impossible to reject negative thoughts about ourselves, how has it been possible for us to spend our whole lives rejecting positive thoughts about ourselves? Take Control of Your Mind, and Create Your New Reality I say "Out" to every negative thought that comes to my mind. No person, place, or thing has any power over me, for I am the only thinker in my mind. I create my own reality and everyone in it. -- Louise Hay I'll start off by stating I have no business with the school of fixed thinking. If you are a person who believes you are powerless against anything that comes your way in life, be it illness, financial crisis, or the death of someone dear to you – who believes, on some level, that no matter what you do, you will never heal, feel better, or at least find the opportunity that comes with every hardship -- then you will not like what I am about to say. A culture of complainers Because I believe that in the Western world we have habits that steer us toward negative lives. We listen to sad songs, read depressing books, watch movies about heartbreak, post bitter Facebook statuses about the infinitesimal, and complain about something as insignificant as a grey sky. We are so stuck in our own heads that we even over-analyze what we are going to say to an old school friend we see down the street -- and then, of course, beat ourselves up after the encounter, convinced we must have made a fool of our ourselves... The first step to accepting this is forgiveness. Maya Angelou said "When you know better, you do better" -- and it's true. You are not to blame for the fact that you have lived most of your life accustomed to tendencies that do not enhance your life. Our parents knew no better, because they were taught, as we were, that the world is a scary, cold, dog-eat-dog place destined to disappoint us. However, I'm here to rearrange your perspective. I'm here to reinforce the growth mindset. Flip the frame Our issue is that we've spent too much time planting negative thoughts, where no life grows at all. Everything stays dead and cold and sunless. Because we're so focused on all of the world's problems, diseases, hardships and hungers, we forget to do anything to try to change them. We set our Facebook profile pictures to a temporary filtered flag over our faces and we feel we've done our bit. Your victim mindset would like you to believe you are powerless in helping world causes; though with or without money you really could be doing more and you know it. Many successful authors, business people and athletes indebt their successes to the Law of Attraction, made famous by author Rhonda Byrne in The Secret. This phenomenon states that if you think and act in alignment with a desire or fear, you will eventually attract that thing into your life. For all of you sceptics out there, however, I'm here to demystify the concept -- by reframing it as the Law of Action. "Actions speak louder than words" The way we apply this saying to positive thinking is that if you can imagine your most ideal, vibrant, happy self, and then take the steps to act toward becoming that person -- eating better, spending more time with those you love and less with those you dislike, choosing a job you enjoy, being in a relationship with someone who supports your growth or ending one with someone who doesn't, and developing confidence in yourself and your ideas -- you will eventually end up being that person. But it's a long and gruelling process, littered with ruinous bouts of self-doubt, especially when those closest to you attempt to sabotage your chances of being your best out of a fear of your new power: Your power to pick yourself back up when once upon a time staying pinned down to the floor was more comfortable. Your power to look in the mirror and tell yourself that today will be a good day, despite your usual tendency to glare in the mirror with only dread in your eyes. Your power to banish every useless thought from your brain by staring in its ugly face, feeling it fully, then watching it pass as you do whatever you were scared of anyway. For now, I'll close on my favorite, which is from a book called The Second Circle by Patsy Rodenburg. Hopefully it will ignite within you a desire to be your brightest, boldest, most breathtaking self in all encounters: "You are much more alive and brilliant than you allow yourself to be."
Love Your Shadow: How to Use Your Darker Qualities to Help You Shine Bright
Psychiatrist and psychoanalyst Carl Jung was the first to coin the term "Shadow Self" (to an extent, synonymous with Freud's "id"): the ugly part of our being that we don't wish to publicly own, leading us to suppress it and therefore project its qualities onto other people instead. There's no denying that the people you hate the most are people who, ironically, share similar qualities to the ones that you dislike in yourself. Perhaps you're someone who interrupts people often yet despises being interrupted yourself. Or you're an introvert who dislikes extroverted people because of their ease with expressing parts of themselves you find uncomfortable to express. Or maybe you're a critical mother who treats her children with a lack of respect, yet finds herself shocked when her children talk back to and criticize her on a consistent basis. Love Your Shadow: How to Use Your Darker Qualities to Help You Shine Bright Every person has a dark side. What defines a person with good character is not a spotless life of constant kindness, smiles and even temperament -- but a willingness to see in themselves their deepest and wildest selves, lust, greed, jealousy and envy. Their complete and authentic self. - Shannon Alder What do we usually do when people bring this side of ourselves to light? Defend. Deny. Forever try to hold back whatever bad quality was brought up about us out of a fear someone might bring it back up again. But what if we just submitted to and accepted these warts, blemishing our otherwise miraculous make-up? What if we switched perspective, seeing these flawed aspects not as diminishing but enhancing? What if they existed for the sole intention of making us... complete? When we submerge these parts of ourselves, they only show up in other areas of our lives. They show up in stubbed toes and poisonous relationships. In rejection letters and arguments with your partner. Only when you are willing to accept and forgive your darkness will it be able to heal and transform into deep light. There's a story in your scars The logic of this is backed by the Japanese practice of Kintsugi: when an object breaks (be it a bowl, mug, or vase), rather than super-glue it back together or throw it away, the Japanese instead mend the object by filling its cracks with lacquered gold. As opposed to hiding the flaws with an invisible glue, the practice instead chooses to highlight them – emphasising that the damage done to the object only makes it richer in experience and therefore more valuable and beautiful. What if we could look at our shadow selves this way? What if we could see that the parts we want to deny and cover up are actually our strengths, because they highlight the richness of our own experience? Loving your full self Your cynicism highlights that you have had it tough in life. Your jealousy highlights that you have been hurt before. Your anxiety highlights that you have been belittled by someone you cared about. These are not traits to be hated or hidden; they are traits to be nursed and forgiven. READ: Your Fears Will Set You Free, but Only if You Free Them First Acknowledging these (as society would perceive) uglier aspects is not about operating from them either, but rather about honoring where they come from while consciously choosing to act from a place of light anyway. Cue the Harry Potter quote... We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are. -- Sirius Black, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Or perhaps a lesser known one from Haemin Sunim's The Things You Can See Only When You Slow Down: No one is inherently good or bad. Only the circumstance in which we encounter each other is good or bad. A criminal who happens to stop a car from running over me is an angel sent by God. A Nobel Peace prize winner who happens to bump into me on the subway is a jerk. -- Haemin Sunim I would greatly suggest further research into Shadow Work, because I believe it can heal your life. We would all be lying if we said we were entirely positive people from the tops of our heads to the tips of our toes. We all have bitterness, envy and rage inside of us, and the goal is not to ignore them but instead to notice and forgive them so vividly that their stigma disappears on its own. Channel your darkness into light Years ago I was almost excluded from secondary school, with the main reason being that I was too "opinionated" towards teachers. Yet when I started to use my opinion in class debates and as inquisitiveness to ace essays and exams, the school suddenly started to value this trait in me. The shadow is never the problem; the problem or lack thereof is the outlet you give the shadow. READ: The Happiness Hack: Learning to Love Your Negative Emotions This planet has homed the darkest of despairs, tragedies, losses, isolations, heartaches and griefs – and from these damp, cold, pitch-black caves have emerged some of the most triumphantly beautiful pieces of art the planet has seen. These artists chose to give their pain a positive outlet, which made us all the more enlightened for years to come. Next time you watch a super-hero movie, try this: empathize with the villain. Notice that the villain has every capability of using his or her powers for the betterment of the world if they choose to. Notice that they have been misled; that they became corrupted because once upon a time, someone made them feel powerless, and they never wanted to feel that way again. That regardless of the way they choose to use their power, there is no denying that their power is great. The shadow itself is never the problem, but rather the outlet you choose to give it.
Live Like You Already Have It, and You Will
So many people, when asked about their goals, immediately sling them far off into some mythical "one day" and allow them to settle there. "I'll start getting up early when I have a job," they'll say. "I'll stop eating junk and start eating healthy when someone buys me a gym pass," they'll moan. "I'll give money to charity when I'm rich," they’ll vow. But this "when" is always vague. Why? Because the truth is that you are never going to reach the point where you feel like changing your life.Live Like You Already Have It, and You WillYou need to recognize that the risk of moving toward your dreams is much lower than the slow, everyday punishment you inflict on yourself by suppressing your dream.- Mel RobbinsIt's a tragedy that the prime trigger for human action is only when something goes terribly wrong. There are people around the world who give up smoking only when they get lung cancer; start searching for a job only when they have nothing left in the bank; start being grateful for their health only when it is challenged by a disease that has erupted beyond their control; start spending time with the friends who have always been there for them only after a devastating break up.Of course, this behavior is the opposite of heroic. It's lousy. It unveils years of self-neglect in one big ugly back-to-back sitting. It shows that we only care about ourselves when there's a problem – and we're all guilty of it.So, what's the solution? What will spring us from this pit of self-neglect onto a plane of self-love? Well, I'll tell you: the solution is for us to we start living like we already possess the change we want. And that we start now.Put the guilt away -- today is a new dayThere is great power in this method. Nobody demonstrates that power more than Jim Carrey, who as a young struggling actor wrote himself a check for 10 million dollars dated "Thanksgiving 1995," for "acting services rendered." He worked as hard as he possibly could toward that intention, and by Thanksgiving 1995 had received 10 million dollars for the hit comedy, Dumb and Dumber.One way he achieved his goal – along with much more than he anticipated – was by having a relentless faith that what he desired was out there waiting for him, so long as he did the graft to bring it toward him. The place most of us get stuck is one of thinking without acting. We imagine the ideal future for ourselves, then just expect it to turn up at our doorsteps like a generous party guest, bearing casual gifts of infinite wealth and health. The end result to such an assumption can only be doom and disappointment.Visualization is not enoughVisualization only works when you are in alignment with the energy of what you want to attract. If you are slobbing about on the couch every day and night feeding junk to your body, do not expect your dream job/spouse/health state to come flooding into your life. You are not in alignment with your dream; you are in alignment with more debt, more rejection, and more disease.The power lies not in what you do, but in the intention behind what you do. Had Jim Carrey just "worked hard" in general, maybe at a job he didn't like, or maybe worked on something unrelated to good acting like trying to please people, he would never have achieved all that he did. Success like his back in 1995 comes from having that specific through-line: the services rendered. What services will you render? For, after all, receiving is just as much about giving. Hoarders are likely to never get much more – and if they do, they'll only be miserable because they'll never bring themselves to spend it on a deserving cause.Serve the world and the world will serve youKnowing what you can do for the world in return for abundance will help you live like you already have it. If your dream is to become a heart surgeon, the intention behind it should never be so you can afford beautiful holidays and flashy cars – those may be lovely by-products, but isn't the pride that comes with saving hundreds of lives the more fulfilling intention behind such a dream? Isn't that what will ultimately help you rest your head at night in peace?To offer a personal example, a year ago, inspired by Carrey's story, in the midst of all of the volatile confusion, heartache, ecstasy and joy that comes with drama school auditions, I wrote out a template letter addressed to myself and dated it 31st May 2016, via which I had hypothetically been accepted onto a degree course in Acting.The interesting part is that the date was completely random. I read the letter over and over for some time like Carrey suggested until I eventually forgot about it. I spent the year working extremely hard toward that goal, and – I still thank my lucky stars for this today -- in the end, I got a place. Over the past year I have grown more as an actor and a human being than I ever thought posssible. But that isn't the miracle... The miracle was that I was accepted on the 31st May.Make your own miracleI only realized this a few months ago while reflecting on an old journal where the letter was crumpled inside. I glanced over the letter with a warm feeling of compassion for myself, because the institution I selected for my template was a school I received a call-back from but was ultimately rejected by. I laughed at how hard I tried.Though it wasn't until I saw the date in the corner that I rushed for my actual acceptance letter -- and my eyes started to well up with tears. The dates on both letters matched! And I know in my gut it wasn't just a coincidence.I had a goal, intended with all my might to achieve that goal, imagined myself having that goal, let go of it, and then all obstacles moved out of the way to bring about that goal.As my beloved Oprah would word it, what I know for sure is this: when you are relentlessly in tune with a vision for yourself so much so that it motivates you to go about your life acting in a way that suggests you have already received that vision, eventually, you are going to achieve that vision.It is law.